Challenge #7-Support System.
So the person to initially get me into recovery and stop me from dying has to be my mom. She didn’t force me into recovery but she nudged me and was a huge reason I decided to get help. Sometimes I get annoyed with her pilot mom-ing but I know she just cares about me and wants me to be happy and healthy.
The second photo is of my friend Elaine whom I just met last year in D.C. and she helped me through my relapse when I was there. It also was nice to have someone to talk to who also had a history of ED struggles and didn’t think I was crazy when I was going through tough ED-related shit.
Lastly, my puppy Maisy is just a lovebug and a beacon of light so she always makes me smile and it’s hard being stressed about life when you have a puppy licking your face.
Hover over the month you were born in
January // February // March // April // May // June // July // August // September // October // November // December
Hover over the day
1 // 2 // 3 // 4 // 5 // 6 // 7 // 8 // 9 // 10 // 11 // 12 // 13 // 14 // 15 // 16 // 17 // 18 // 19 // 20 // 21 // 22 // 23 // 24 // 25 // 26 // 27 // 28 // 29 // 30 // 31
Hover over your current mood
happy // sad // tired // absolutely done // pissed off // bored // energetic // sick // hurt // stressed
Challenge Day #6…missed yesterday, oops! Recovery goal: to be as happy as I was before my ED (first photo) and to eat whatever I want whenever I want without feeling guilty.
We hear many terrible things throughout our lives, especially those of us who struggle with mental illnesses. These words never really leave our minds. To this day I remember things said to me when I was only five years old. When I go to take a bite of an “unhealthy” food, I hear the voice of my mother when we were on vacation five years ago asking me if I “should be eating a salad instead.” When I reach down and feel my hipbones now all I can hear is the anonymous person messaging me about how I’m “too thin for them.” It’s never good enough. Nothing is ever going to be enough, you will never please everybody and you are not supposed to. You are supposed to live your life for you, regardless of the opinions of others. Punishing your body in order to avoid judgement and criticism will never solve your problems. Your body is not a battleground. It is your home and it deserves love, respect and kindness. If you or a loved one—or even a stranger—appear to be struggling with an eating disorder please do not blow it off as “just a phase.” Talk to someone, reach out, get help before it’s too late. Recovery is worth it. I promise.
Credit to my best friend Jess for helping me as well as Elijah. I could not have made this project a reality without you.